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Bittersweet Memories

by Jonathon Smith

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It's Amazing 03:21
It’s hard to remain positive When I have a knack for the melancholy. I’ve been known to lack appreciation, So, this time I hope you see It’s amazing how you see through All the stupid things I do. I rarely shed my mask of sarcasm To display my insecurities. I’m so glad you tell me when I’m wrong And when you feel I’ve lost my focus. It’s amazing how you see through All the stupid things I do. I hate it when you remind me of the obvious Because it only means that I haven’t been observant. It’s amazing how you see through All the stupid things I do.
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Driving home tonight, I wonder how we can completely agree That we can agree yet respond so differently. Sometimes I ask myself if we’re alone. Sometimes I ask myself if we can be known. Do you feel that we’ve mistaken The voice of caution for fear? Do you think that we’ve mistaken Inconvenience for tyranny?
3.
It’s that feeling of your hair between my fingers. It makes me want to stay, it makes me want to linger. And it’s something like a power ballad, You know that I want to hold you forever. It’s that feeling of the warmth your body radiates. It makes me want to linger, it makes me want to stay And it’s something like a good pop song, You know that I want to lie like this forever.
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I thought I could be the strong one, Now I’m not so sure. I thought I could hold my own, Now I just need a hug. I know that it can’t change Circumstances in my life, But it’ll lift my countenance When I feel your heart beat next to mine. Now I’m left alone, thinking about you And how I wish I were there, But I’m presently content Knowing that you care. I know that it can’t change Circumstances in my life, But it’ll lift my countenance When I feel your heart beat next to mine.
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Gossip is, so many times, disguised as concern and prayer. And the pride I find in being right parades as love for wisdom. Impatient screams wear costumes of a zeal for truth. Transparency is my mask, humility a prized jewel. When I have a good idea, I am at my worst. With my heart bent on convincing you, I listen so much less. Oh, how I mistake emotionlessness for self-control. The times I feel nothing are when I’m most miserable. When I have a good idea, I am at my worst. With my heart bent on convincing you, I listen so much less.
6.
Another Father’s Day And everybody celebrates but me. You’re just a few miles away Yet for years you’ve remained Continents apart, leaving a hole in my heart. I remember that great day When you baptized me, And I remember that day When you left our family. Wouldn’t it be strange if God wants to speak Through such bittersweet memories. Could it be that forgiveness is ongoing, More than seven times seventy? Could it be that forgiving isn’t as easy As it’s preached?
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I go out to drink by myself, Not to socialize. I’m not here to drown my sorrows, I am here to clear my mind. Do you think I ever could, Do you think I ever should Welcome the adversity or embrace the unease? Maybe grief is just like love, Maybe it draws me to you. What do I do but embrace And listen to you? Do you think I ever could, Do you think I ever should Welcome the adversity or embrace the unease, Knowing fully it may bring growth to me?
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It’s always good to talk to you, But today it felt so different. Because when I left, You know I left with a heavy heart. I know what it’s like to be controlled, And I know what it’s like to walk away. I just hope that you can what’s right for you. Never mistake comfort happiness. You always seem so positive, And I can hear it in your voice. But today you stuttered, So I could tell you were so troubled. I know what it’s like to be controlled, And I know what it’s like to walk away. I just hope that you can what’s right for you. Never mistake comfort happiness.
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Sometimes I wonder if You ever tire From my tired line: “Declare me innocent from all my hidden faults.” More often than I care to admit, I don’t perceive my own brokenness Until I see the mess I’ve made, Until I see I need Your hand. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever learn Your grace depends so little on me And that you still speak. Help me see your commands give light Radiant light to my eyes. Help me believe your decrees are firm, All of them are righteous.
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Let the sunshine quit my sky Let the sharp east wind assail Let the fightings from without And the fears within prevail. Only call me thine, Only let me call thee mine, And all shall be well. All shall be well. Let dark disappointment come Let affection’s cherished dreams Vanish like the bloom of spring Like the rainbow’s passing gleams. Let the broken bonds of love Leave a void within my breast; Let the farewells of each day Remind me this is not my rest.

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This time around, I've decided to record some of my songs without my usual instrumentation and chicanery. Some are new songs, but I also chose to record songs for this album that I’ve written over the past 20 years. For better or worse, songs were recorded with one condenser microphone and in one take with no edits.

While I may no longer be in some of those situations that inspired some of these lyrics, I hope the songs can encourage you to feel your feelings.

Thank you for listening.

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released October 17, 2020

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